Why am I here?
Oh Lord. It’s the existential question everyone wants the answer to. Why am I here? Why are YOU here? We’re all here to learn about writing. The journey. The neurosis. My gift and my curse.
First lesson. Writers are dramatic.
Perhaps I should start with Who Am I?
I’m a self-proclaimed young adult author who occasionally toes the line into new adult and adult. Lines were meant to be crossed, after all. I love fantasy and sci-fi, but my short fiction tends to be contemporary. Perhaps you’ve heard of me, Kacey Vanderkarr. I’ll wait while you do the Google.
The long story is that I started writing seriously in 2009. I had a dream and my laptop. Magic happened. Well…to be honest, back then the things I wrote weren’t so magical. The next few years moved in fast-forward. I learned A LOT of things. Then, in 2013, I published my debut novel, Antithesis, with Inkspell Publishing. I learned more things. The writing industry moves sllloooowwww. You will never stop learning how to become a better writer. You can have a million dreams but you never get anywhere without the work. Therefore, I put in more work. In 2014, in addition to being published in Sucker Literary Vol III (where I met Hannah R. Goodman, the evil genius she is), I self-published Reflection Pond and Poison Tree, and coedited a fairy anthology, Out of the Green: Tales from Fairyland.
On top of all that writing stuff, I’m also a sonographer at a hospital and a sometimes coach to a high school winterguard team. My interests are wide and varied, as long as there are books or a good story involved. I have a husband and a seven-year-old mini me whose reading level is off the charts. He’s my prodigy. One day I hope he’ll write something great. I’m mostly vegan, though I love (and eat!) cheese. I’m often mistaken for a high school student. I’m taller than 95% of the people you know and no, I don’t play basketball, though I did take 17 years of dance classes.
Throughout this crazy ride in Writer Land, one thing has remained constant: My lack of an agent. It’s not because I haven’t tried (I have.). It’s not because I don’t want one (I do.). I suppose it’s just that I haven’t found that fine thread of fate that will lead me to the ever mystical and mysterious ONE. One agent to rule them all…or maybe just my backlog of manuscripts. One agent to rule my backlog. Doesn’t have quite the same ring to it. (Pun intended. See? I can be punny.)
Why This Blog?
Mostly I want to know that I’m not alone, and in doing so, I can share my own struggles, triumphs, and stories with others. The writing community is both remarkably gigantic AND welcoming. There are thousands (probably more) writers out there who are just starting out, and in in five years or so, I want to read their stories. We won’t get there alone.
In addition, I’m nowhere near where I want to be. I can’t write you a neat list of things that would count me as “successful,” but I’m not there yet. I’m a writer, yes, I’ve published things, but I have yet to reach my full potential. If hanging out with a handful of other cool writers will help me, I’m 100% in.
So…Where Am I? (I’m stealing Hannah’s bulleted list, because that’s what writers do.)
- Actively seeking representation for Stepping Stones, a YA Fantasy Series.
- That doesn’t work out? Actively seeking representation for Sleep and Shatter, a YA Fantasy.
- Writing Torch Rock, Book 3 in the Reflection Pond series for self-publication in 2015.
- In my backlog (Attn: Agents! I have a BACKLOG of manuscripts!) I have a new adult novella, several short pieces, 3 or 4 “shelved” novels, and something new that’s challenging me to become a better, more daring writer. It’s YA Dystopian…I think. (I’m also terrified of it.)
- Joining a new writing group (and keeping my old one, the Flint Area Writers) to learn and share as much as I can.
- Blogging about Things.
I have no idea what the future will bring. Will I self-publish more novels? Will I unlock the ever-elusive Agent Achievement?
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